Freedom from 40oz

Happy 4th of July.  Spent the day with hubby and son at a pretty cool park about an hour from our house.  Was nice to spend some time with my parents and my sister, her bf, and the kids.  Of course, this is not without a bazillion panic attacks, passive arguments with my mother, extreme exhaustion from hubby.  All in all though, a good time.

I guess this holiday is like the number one drinking day of the year?  Here I always thought it was St. Patrick's Day.  No I don't have a reference for this factoid.

Today I am 1 year sober. *pat on the back*  I am super excited about it even though I know that it's never going to be over.

I've had a total of 10 hours of sleep in the past 3 days! So, I want to write more about this but I need to sleep. zzzzzzzzzz

On a waterfall

Please Clone Me!

Chucks doing homework.

I know I'm like 20 minutes late of making my post for 7/3.  Oh well.  I've been at this computer all day long. My day was, once again, consumed by the Casey Anthony trial and homework.  I did finally get one paper done but I have another one due by Tuesday night and three more by the follow Tues.  That's not including class, discussion boards and quizes. 

Please can someone clone me?  I'm willing to pay in pure xoxo's!! Come on, I need a second me!

All the Places We Will Go

On a "completely unrelated to this post" note:  I am incredibly annoyed by Blogger tonight!  I am logged in, in fact I even clicked to check the little box and stay logged in.  However, everytime I try to comment on another blog or follow a blog I am asked to log in again.  It has become a vicious cycle and I am about to pull my hair out!

I have decided, for the time being that I will not post pictures directly of myself, my son, hubby or our dogs.  My reason for this is that I want to remain as annonymous as possible so that I can speak openly and honestly without fear of repricution.  Of course their are some friends and family members that will know it is me.  I'm not worried about that as much as I am about the 1200+ national members of a group that I run.  The thing is that the majority of them do not know me well enough to know when I'm being sarcastic, or really well enough to know my personal buisness at all.  I like that I have so many people behind my cause. However, I don't need all of them knowing my every inner thought or complaint.  Also, in the animal advocacy world, people are extremely oppinionated and not afraid to spill their opinions out to anyone even to the point of almost attacking them.  There for, I choose to stay annonymous.

So, in order to help keep my blog interesting, force myself to blog everyday and challenge myself I came up with this cooky idea.  Introducing:  All the Places We Will Go! 365 pictures of my Chuck Taylors in the strangest place for that day.  Odd, I know, but it should be fun.

Day 1: In a flower garden in an amusement park

I am sure I could have found a million stranger, more creative places to put my feet in an amusement park but I really did not want to be this strange tattooed and pierced up woman snapping pictures of her feet everywhere. In the words of my eight year old, "How embarassing, mom!!"

Thin

I'm afraid I have some sort of fixation with piling on as much stuff on my shoulders as humanly possible.  I stretch myself so thin that I just know one day I'm going to be laying across the floor flat as a pancake.  Still no one will  notice.  No one will pay mind, until the house is a mess, my homework's not done, the dogs aren't bathed and my son has not been tended too.  Well, I can't say that.  He would always be tended to by hubby.  So then, who would notice?  I'd probably just lay there flat, continually piling things on as if one day I might just be super woman.  I might just knock the town down and rebuild it, why?  Because someone said I couldn't.  Because I didn't feel that the other 500 things I had to do that day were enough.  Or more importantly...because someone asked me to.

I have an inability to say no.  Take another task on?  Yes. Why yes?  Because "no" does not fall into my vocabulary.  My personal favorite is, "You're a strong woman, you will figure out a way to get it all done."  Ahhhh, yes, a challenge. Now I most certainly cannot say no. Clean the yard, get three paper written, take care of son, take in another foster dog, take this dog for a walk, clean terreriums, loan some money, watch other people's kids, smile when hubby brings in another reptile for me to tend to, read my school books...sex? Why not add that into the day?  Is it finally bed time at 4 am? YES!

Don't mind me down here....just trying to figure out how to put my super hero cape back on.

For You

"I love you. I am who I am because of you. You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. " 
— Nicholas Sparks (The Notebook)


I have a million imperfections.   If you spread them down the block, they'd reach.  I put a million words into a thousand sentences and yet, say nothing.  I am one big ball of indecisive, reluctant, out spoken, manic depressant.  Somewhere in it all I still see beauty.  A flawless, crooked smile in the mirror. I sigh.